Saturday, September 3, 2011

I'm On The Edge Of Glory...

Today's run was this side of AMAZING!!!  All week I've been run/walking (run 10 walk 5) for 40 minutes (45 after the cool down walk) and today my goal was to do 5 minutes of walking followed by 60 minutes of running for 10 walking for 5 and then at 65 minutes cool down walk.  I DID IT!!!  I couldn't believe it.  I finished this week in 5 runs 17 miles and if I'm up for it tomorrow I'll add a few more in the mix!! 

The first 10 minute run was hard!  I am not used to running in the mornings and my weekend running hasn't been all that consistent (that is going to change).  The first 10 minutes my head is filled with all the negative self talk and I have to literally out loud tell myself to shut up.  I said "Tiffany, don't listen to that you can do it, your strong, you've trained.  This is character building, this is when you become stronger." I don't remember if that was the specific words I used...I'm sure I threw in a few swear words too.  I love Jesus but I gotta admit...I like to swear a little at times, well OK...a lot.  

The next first 5 minute walk went by so fast.  I thought only 30 seconds passed.  About 5 minutes into the  2nd 10 minute run the pain goes away, my breathing is stabilizing, I feel relaxed and I'm just running.  I thought this is what I've wanted.  

I don't remember much other than just running and walking until about minute 35-40-ish.  A landscaping crew was out working and one of the men said hi and tried to actually flirt with me.  Made this girl feel good about herself especially since I was such a hot sweaty mess and my shirt was soaked with sweat.  Some where around minute 40 the song "Edge of Glory" comes over my iPod.  Gosh I really <3 some GaGa.  I get to the 2nd verse and my favorite phrase of the song comes on "Put on your shades because I'll be dancin' in the flames" and I start to cry.  Anyone that knows me knows I'm the worlds biggest cry baby.  I am thinking to myself OMG I'm really doing this.  I'm going to finish this run strong and I kept going.  Then the GaGa song "You and I" came over and I just kept running more and kept off and on crying happy tears.  After those two songs it was time for my 5 minute walk.  Minute 50 comes and it's time for the last run of the this leg.  By minute 55 I feel like I'm breaking down.  I slow my pace which is slow to begin with (ha) and the song "I'm moving on" comes across on my iPod.  I don't like country music at all but my girl Connie introduced me to it and I've loved it ever since.  The part of the song:  I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness. For once I'm at peace with myself.  I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long I'm movin' on.  I have really overcome a lot personally in the last 5 years. I could bore you with the details but I'll spare you.  I will say I'm so thankful for every negative thing in my life because it's turned into a positive.  In the midst of struggle it's tough but coming out of it and growing is priceless!  Being able to see the good in the bad is priceless.  

So all you little kids with the pumped up'd better run!!  If you don't run get out there and do some kickboxing or zumba just do something!!!  

Happy weekend all 

1 comment:

Connie York said...

Tears for you my friend, happy happy tears! Love that song. Listening to it right now♥ Great Job and this half is going to be so AMAZING for you!